...I've just discovered that this will not let me use paragraphs, and this will frustrate me more than you would guess. Anyway, my life currently consists of the following: school, family, forensics [until next week, anyway], 4H, the horses, rabbits, etc., preparing for 'Taming of the Shrew', work, friends... etc. I'm pretty busy for the most part, but i keep telling my mom, "if I wasn't this busy i might have done drugs". Obviously, I say this just to make her feel better. Don't get the wrong idea there. XD ...I know that just about every girl in existence will say 'I'm not your average girl'. This is obvious in any case, and I've stated my argument that 'being normal is weird'. this contradicts itself if you think about it, but it makes sense anyway. So my point is, no, I'm not average - obviously. I come off as loud, optimistic, and probably obnoxious to some. The thing is though, I'm way more emotional sometimes than I let people know. I'm a faithful journal writer, and secretly wish to publish a journal someday for my own benefit... even though that's about impossible with the content of mine. Really, that's the only place that I've ever confided all of my feelings and thoughts within. There are friends that know a lot of those secrets, but they don't know as much as they think they do. Sometimes that turns around to bite me in the ass, but what can you do? Sometimes i get those moments that i think people know more than they should, but at times that's almost what i need. I'm not a needy person, mind you. I'm not a jealous person, and every friendship or relationship I've ever been in, I always let people get away with probably more than they should. I've got a million stories to tell, and frequently i feel the need to tell someone, but most of the time i don't because 1. They probably aren't that interested 2. They're not exactly the best memories, some of them ....This is where i remind you that not having paragraphs is annoying the piss out of me... Let's change subjects, shall we? ... I have dreams that I'm embarrassed to tell about. Not the literal dreams, I'll tell you all about those and laugh about them.. but the dreams that involve the future. Anytime that i decide to tell someone what i really would love to do, I'm reminded that its about impossible for someone like me, in more ways than one. I might as well spell it out on here for you to understand. I'd love to stay on stage for the rest of my life. Musical Theatre would be the best out there, but the lack of dance experience and vocal skills really affects the application. That, and my being short affects my chances, too. I could go into a big discrimination topic right about now, but nobody wants to read about that when it's mentioned so much in everyday life. What doesn't make sense though is that I like being short. it's almost like my signature. Like Marilyn Monroe's mole, or Van Gogh's ear..It's what makes me... 'not your average girl', you could say.
2 comments:
Acting is still an option if you would want that. You don't need vocal or dance skills to stay on stage... but perhaps to stay in musical theater.
As far as your height goes, that's not entirely true. When I got called back for Acting at Point Park, there was a really short girl there, too... Probably about your height. She was a good actress, from what I could hear.
Money might be a restriction... the only really good PA state school is PSU, but their program is TINY.
I don't want to get your hopes up or anything, but I don't think you should entirely rule them out. Just remember to always have a back-up...
Whatever makes you happy, though.
I know that vulnerability of letting people in, and ofcourse I'm sure you've noticed, that I'm kind of a strange bird too , but I love being a weird-o and the normal is weird thing, I totally agree with. As for musical theatre, everybody loved you in anything goes, you stole the stage more than mike did and just lit it up, keep your options open, but dont lose hope.
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